ShaunaMarie's Ramblings

I started this crazy ass journey back in August. I have lost count on how many men I have spoken with, exchanged emails, texted and skyped with, the number is scary honestly. Lots of toads, a few high-quality men, who I managed to intimidate and scare off with my intensity, maybe? I have no idea, one day they just stop talking. I guess it’s a common thread, so what is it exactly that men want? What is it that they expect to happen if they show up like a real man and actually tell you, "Hey it's just not working for me", good luck with your search. What do they think? I guess there are some scary women who would get angry and lash out, if she’s all that, then just walk away, but there are those of us out here who just want to know, so we don’t make the same mistakes the next time. I can usually go over every conversation, ruminate over them actually, and find several dozen reasons someone would find me undesirable. So, news … fuck… Ok so in the last couple weeks I ...

For some crazy reason, I am extremely attracted to Libra men. I have three exs, best friend, brother, father and have been out with many others. The last one was right on the cusp, but, claims Scorpio. He's a Libra, trust me. Libra's are my kryptonite. They are charming and broody and funny and they love to philosophize, examine the wrongs of the world. They're sensitive and emotional and just overall sweet men. BUT and that is a big BUT, they hurt me every time. They break my heart, aren't ready to commit or aren't interested in committing to me. Twice I have been told, "I'm sorry but I am marrying someone else."  One of them after six years of a tumultuous relationship. Recently, I was drawn to a man. He was attractive, intelligent, very charming, and seemingly, into me. I asked his birthday, sure enough, Libra. I knew it before he even told me. I said to him. "I'm so sorry. We can't talk anymore." "Why?" he asked....